Mother's Day

Last year I was so wrapped up in my grief that I hardly remember this day had come. It had only been a few short weeks since his death and the magnitude of this day had not hit me.

This year I can't stop thinking that I would have probably been a Mother tomorrow. I would have probably gotten my first mother's day card. If things had gone according to our "plan" I would have celebrated this as my first mother's day with Richie and our child.

I can't tell you how much I want to be a mom. I just can't get the perfect words together to express those feelings of wanting a child so bad you can hardly stand it.

I wish that I were a mom...